My life feels empty.. I feel like I have a big void and I need something to fill it up with. Just SOMETHING. But I mean, is someone my age really supposed to feel this way? Lol. I'm only 18 years old and most of the time people in their 30's find their life meaningless and pathetic, and going nowhere. Why is it that I'm going through this problem at such a freaking young age? I'm supposed to be enjoying my teenage years. It's the "prime" of my life is it not? I'm supposed to be out there and just living. Carefree without a worry. But I'm constantly questioning what needs to be done, what has to be done, where I need to go and whatnot. When I'm at home sitting and doing nothing, it makes me feel so useless. Whatever... I think when I grow up.. I would like to write a book. To be a published writer, and an oceanographer. But I think I might be involved politically or something. I don't know. I want to actually make a difference in my field and.. lol i want to be a little famous. But I don't really expect to be famous, BUT i would like to write a book, novel.. something. Writing was something I always wanted to do during middle school, so who knows. I'll make writing a book as one of my new goals.. I only have 5 at the moment anyways haha. x)